life.

I am not understanding it right now.

haha.

and I currently suck at it. um actually i need to stop saying that because I always suck at it.

I don't know how to I'm ever gonna have more faith. I don't know how to love God. I don't know how I'm ever gonna be used by God. I don't know how I'm ever gonna be able to SERIOUSLY love people. I don't know when ill stop being selfish. I dont know when ill stop feeling anxious. i dont know when ill be able to figure out certain things.

Im desperate. and I dont know what I want, or what i'm looking for. It's honestly very frustrating. I guess its safe to say I'm stuck. and its lame.

haha. yea so theres the update on MY life. hopefully next blog i'll be way more encouraging and actually maybe sorta have an answer and mention God a LOT more because its all about Him and not me. And I just made this whole blog about me.

perfect.